I don’t really want to talk about food today. Or how classes are going or any of that. I want to talk about this thing called life and how important it is to live and love and appreciate every true friend you have in your life.
Let’s be sappy.
I’ve met a lot of amazing people in my life. I’m young, but I like to think that I’ve lived a few lives already, both good and bad. I’ve been through some bad stuff. But the fact is, somehow you always come back to the good, and you are reminded who you are and what you live for.
I know what I live for.
You know, I kind of start typing this stuff and wonder why anyone would want to read it. I’m going to keep writing because it feels awesome.
I want you guys to know that this is what I love. Waking up every morning so freakin’ excited for the day. There really isn’t enough time in a day. I avoid going to sleep every night because I just want to live. This morning I had this conversation:
“How are you today?”
“Ready to get ish doneeee. I’m so excited for today”
“What’s happening today?”
“It’s just a typical day”
Being inspired, realizing goals (notice I didn’t say “setting”? you realize your goals when they come to you), working my tail off, and constantly surprising and being surprised. Writing, photographing, taking video and sharing it with all of you. Social media is a beautiful thing. Do you have any idea where I would be if it weren’t for the power of social media and all of you guys? Bored. Bored, still trying to figure out where I want to go, what I want to do, who I want to be.
A friend of mine posted this image on his Facebook the other day:
I’m not very religious, but I know I don’t want to walk up to the gates of heaven and see the person I could have been. I want to walk up to the gates of heaven and meet myself. Not the version of myself that I wanted to be, but who I am because I stuck every. damn. day. to who I envisioned myself becoming.
People, you are like a giant clay sculpture and you will change as you subject yourself to different environments, different people, different lifestyles, whether good or bad. But always understand and remember that YOU are in control. YOU decide who you surround yourself with. YOU decide how you spend the precious hours of your day, your evenings, and how you channel your energy.
I know I’m being really vague right now, so I’m just going to be straight-up honest with you guys. I’m not about to tell you anything earth-shattering. I didn’t get a book deal or a TV spot, and I most certainly am still confused on a lot of things. But ever since I’ve been back at school, I’ve struggled every day. I’ve said it and felt it in the past, but never really done anything about it or been as brutally honest with myself as I need to be.
The American convention is that you go through grade school, do well, get into a good college, do well, get a respectable degree, and then go out into the “real world” with a job application and promise of working for a large company, opening a small business, supporting a family. This is all well and good, but people, I’ve realized over time that GUESS WHAT.
I’m not conventional.
I’m really, completely unconventional. I can’t hold a “job” for more than two months because it feels boring and pointless. It doesn’t make me happy. And you know what, I am a strong believer that life is too short to do what doesn’t make you happy. THIS makes me happy. Waking up inspired and living life so that others are excited to do the same.
What this all comes to, is that I don’t think college is right for me. There. I said it. I don’t think college is right for me.
And I know I am going to get a ton of backlash for this, because yes, it is such a strong belief that you “need a college degree” to “fall back on” but excuse me, people. Steve Jobs, Bill Gates, Ansel Adams, Winston Churchill, Walt Disney, George Eastman, Joyce C. Hall, Steve Madden, David Neeleman, Mark Zuckerberg…. all wildly successful and happy people that get this: Didn’t finish college. I’m not saying that I’m the exception, special, or that these people are any indication that my dreams can become a reality without finishing college, but I am saying that what I know I want to do…. I don’t need a college degree for. It’s almost laughable how much money is being poured into this education that I don’t even think will help me in the future. I don’t plan on working for other people. I plan on working for myself. I am an asset. I have experience. I want more experience. I stand on my own merit, and like-minded people who see that will come to me and want to make beautiful things happen for this world. Collaboration. Experience. There is no math class in the world that will ever teach me the value of real-world experience. Fact.
So, last night, I was talking with a very dear friend of mine who has been in my place. Seen where she’s wanted to be, considered taking time off from school, and didn’t do it. Her and I are so similar it blows my mind sometimes. I explained my life in high school, last year in college, and where I am now. She sees where I am and wants me to follow my dreams. You only have so much time in this life, and if you’re not going to take your wants, dreams, and desires by the reigns, time is just going by anyway. I think I spent two hours talking to this friend and in the middle of me telling her everything that’s been going on, and she sent me this:
“Make a ridiculously spontaneous and risky decision….and love every second of it”
Hmmm, I wonder what that’s ^^^ from?
She pulled out a quote from my bucket list and my eyes welled up with tears. I forgot that I had even written that. Then it hit me: The people you surround yourself with are so incredibly important. Never in my life have I met truer friends than I have in the last year. People that get me. People who want to see me succeed and make my dreams a reality. There is really nothing more beautiful than a true friend who sees who you are inside and wants with all their heart that you hold onto that. That you don’t stray from what makes you happy.
There are so many distractions in this life. Boys, booze, money. Who you know and who your friends know. Why is that so goddamn important? Does that make any of us happy? Maybe for a little while, but when it comes down to it….. who are you? What do you love? What makes YOU happy?
In ten years, I want to be with someone I love, having babies and looking back at that time that I was so lost…. and then I made my life happen. I lived it. And leave the best example possible for those around me that life is about love. What and who, and holding onto those things.
I don’t know how I’m going to get there, but I know that it’s going to take time and a lot of hard work and decision-making. I’m not even sure what “there” is, but the beautiful thing is I’ve got time. Until further notice, I am a college student, a training athlete, and a blogger, first and foremost. But know that the wheels are turning. Mountains are moving. Even after this long post, I’m still only beginning to “figure things out”.
Life is so stinkin beautiful. It’s time to start living it.